lots of changes

So here's what happened.
He did!
 As always....
It's amazing how I can walk around every day, not really thinking about him, but then I see him and BAM! he hits me like a train on an early Saturday Morning.
I don't know what I did, and I don't know what he did. I don't know why it has to be this way, but I do know that as it looks right now, it's not likely that it's gonna change any day soon.
This has been going on for over 2 years now. TWO YEARS! he's been stuck in my head, though I've did what every teen movie tells people in my situation to do.
I did hang out with other people, I did go out and meet new people, I did have some fun, I did think of something else, I was with someone else, I was with someone who didn't even have anything to do with him, little even know that he exists, I did go out and get drunk, and I did a lot of things to try and get over him.
But yet he sits there with his big smile, his beautiful tattoos and his long fluffy hair asking how I am, and telling me that he missed me, and all those things he keep doing that keeps on breaking my heart over and over and over again.
I need changes in my life. Lots of changes.
I need to live a new place, where I can go out and have fun and get drunk and spent time on useless things. I need to live a little and spent some time on making myself happy, and letting myself have some self esteem.
I need to learn how to love myself, and I need to learn how to not care. I need to have some friends, friends I can actually be with, instead of just all of this IM'ing/texting.
It sucks, and I'm freaking sick of being lonely.

What I need is to leave this life behind, and start all over with a new one.
The only thing is, I need to figure out if I want to carry pieces from this life with me, or if I should leave everything behind..

amazing weekend straight ahead

So... I was actually pretty sure that this weekend was gonna die, and I would end up sitting home alone bored as hell, as I have done so often.
But then it all got saved last minute, and now I am thrilled!

Tomorrow Thursday I will start my day by going to a meeting with my social worker-thingy (not so funny -.-), but after that I will head for the shoe store to get my amazing pink babies :D
Then I will go home, get ready and then head for the big bad city Copenhagen to find my beloved Theo, and drag him to the infamous The Dreams concert. He is gonna meet, almost, all the amazing dreamers, and the amazing THE DREAMS - my wonderful guys. It's gonna be awesome!
After the show we're spending the night at Amalie's with Laura, whom I haven't seen for a year this Saturday, so I am dying to give her a great, and long, hug ...
Friday Theo and I will be going back to Copenhagen and having a waterballoon fight, so watch out ;)
After that we will be going to his place to watch Sakin Live, which I am really looking forward to, cause I haven't seen it in a reallyreallyreally loooong time, and I miss it - can't wait till I see his face as we watch it. Those dudes are seriously fucked up ...
After Sakin Live I will be going to Stine's place, and we are heading for the bar, and we are about to get piiiiiiissed - which I haven't been for God knows how long, so that is gonna be ...  let's say interesting ;)
Saturday I have no idea what I am gonna do, but I hope to team up with Theo again - I can be without him for too long can I? [insert blushing emoticon here]

And now I am gonna check on the auction for Theo's birthday present, and after that...   I don't know what I am gonna do after that? Now I just have to reply Jonas - if I feel like it *OLE*

Inspired by The Optimist

Don't forget to love our world
Though the world seems cruel
There's beauty out there
You need to see it's for you
The nature is still young
We can save it if we want to
We need to get ourselves together now
Or tomorrow there wont be anymore that we can do
Embrace it, just taste it

Lyrics Of The Day: The Optimist

A new day is born

The sky is blue

We've got an ocean so big

Which Mother Nature grew

Embrace it, just taste it

A new kind of sun

The sky is true

We've got us mountains to reach

Yeah, everything is for you

Embrace it, just taste it

Artist: The Dreams

Year: 2010

Album: Revolt

Youtube: video coming up