Long time, no see

I know, it's been a while since I showed my face here last.
I've been away on vacation, visiting some friends, doing weird, crazy and lazy stuff. Which has been nice, I've really needed that.
There isn't really much to tell.
I went to Copenhagen on July 9th to go to Nanna's birthday party. Dang she is lucky. She got a lot of nice stuff, but the best thing she got was a life-size card-board Michael Jackson stand-up. It's amazing. I just love it!

I mean look at him, he is just gorgeous! and it looks so realistic, even more when it's popped out of the background, so he stands by himself - I envy her so much..

Then I went to Christian and Inge's place, where I spent a great amount of time with hanging out with Joy, Christian and Inge, and Saturday Theo too..   it was really nice, I enjoyed it a lot. It had been way too long since I had seen Christian, and I had missed him so much, really, really much. But yeah, I had really missed all of them. It sucks living a zillion miles away from everybody I love.

Then Sunday I jumped on a bus from little Nærum to go to Albertslund where beautiful Laura was throwing a little get-together for a few girls. It was Laura, Stine, Sofie, Nina and I.
I loved it. It was so nice just hanging out, watching some MJ dvds, and just talking. About everything and nothing. It was just sad that Laura was going to Encino, CA at Thursday so from that day on I wouldn't see her for more than a month - unfortunately.
After girls night at Laura's I went back to Hvidovre with Stine. We just hung out, watch some TV show, and talked, and spent a few nights drinking. One night there was this amazing thunderstorm right above our heads so we ran out in the street in bare feet dancing around, acting crazy.
And then there was some drinking nights with a few crazyheads from her block, and mystery adventures with...  let's just say it was a boy.

After Stine's I went to Theo's birthday party at Saturday 17th. There was a lot of people I hadn't seen for ages, and it was so good to be back hanging out with them all. Even though it pissed me off that they kept on talking about the Stevie Wonder concert that I hadn't been able to go to.
After the party I came to Fowsia's place. And it was great, cause I rarely see her, and when I do it's not for more than a couple of hours a time, and I miss spending time with her. We spent the days going for walks, and laying on the grass watching clouds, talking about memories, and random stuff.
Then I was headed for Cille's place, whom I hadn't spent time with since...  since I don't know when.
We took a walk with her lovely dog, Luna, and then we watched a few movies. Old school: Scream 3, Scary Movie on VHS and Scary Movie 2 on VHS. We played a bit PS2, and other than that we just talked. I don't know when it was the last time that I had the chance to talk to Cille - just talk, so I really enjoyed that time, even though it weren't long we had together.
Then it became Tuesday and I was going for Nanna's place. We had a deal with Søren to meet with him, and then we would all take Nanna's 6year old brother to a playground near their house. It was awesome. There was this obstacle course that was called the Jungle Path. It was made for kids to learn the alphabet in a fun way, and I must say that I really enjoyed it a lot. There was no swings, but the carousel and the cableway really made up for it. I could stay there for hours - so we did.
At Wednesday Nanna and I went to Copenhagen to meet with Theo, and follow him to Jonas' place where we were staying till Saturday. We went to the beach, barbecued, made a bonfire where we roasted marshmallows and bread on a stick - don't really remember the English word for it - and we slept in a tent. We played dart and watched movies, and all in all it was actually pretty nice. The weather was good, and it was nice just sitting at the fire at night cuddling under a blanket watching the flames, talking about random stuff, drinking and just being together.

But something happened that hurt me deeply, and I had to went home Friday instead of Saturday - I just couldn't take it anymore. It tore out my soul, and now I am restless and don't know what to do.
I miss you. I wish I knew what to do.

Well, this was my 2 weeks on Sjælland. I hope everybody is having a nice vacation, and please take care of yourself out there. More accidents happen in the summer than people are aware of.

Love you all ♥

Eating my heart out

I hate this day. Now I'm gonna have to face reality - I can't deal with it.
I think I'm going to break

I came here to make you dance tonight

So... I am sitting at Stine's floor with Cobra Starship's Guilty Pleasure (Album Version) in my brain, and I haven't been able to get it out since I heard it last afternoon. Not that it bothers me, but it's only two freaking lines.
Stine is fast asleep and I have been awake for around an hour and a half now, and I can't sleep anymore, so I thought that I'd just update this.

I don't know how I feel today. Kinda numb I guess. I got things straightened out with my friend yesterday. Which is good, cause I don't ever wanna lose him. I really love him, though he can be a jerk. But hey, who can't, am I right..
But I'm still feeling like I am gonna explode about that chick that annoys the crap outta me, and I can't really deal with the thought of seeing her tomorrow.

And then there's the case about tomorrow...   June 25th. The Black Day. The Date that's been eating my heart out for a year now.
I can't wrap my brain around it. It's just too much. It's killing me, and all the sudden it is just so real. It's like a nightmare where I'm running from a hideous clown but aren't getting anywhere and th freak is just coming closer and closer and no matter how much I tear my lungs out to scream, no sound is coming out.
It's just.. unbearable..

Yesterday I woke up from this amazing, just wonderful, dream that just seemed so real. It weren't anything big. We were just being together, spending time together. Talking, laughing, embracing each other - just Michael and me. It was so fantastic. And it was so real that when I woke up I could still feel the touch of his skin, smell the sweet scent of his hair, hear his humming in my ear. It killed me. I cried for half an hour when I realized what reality was.
And now I can't seem to stop thinking about it - about him. About the fact that I will never get the chance to hug him, to feel him, to look into those big brown eyes with the amazing lashes.

Michael Jackson, I miss you. Please come back to me?

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call me a whiner - I don't freaking care

Listening to: Fall Out Boy 'Send Postcards From A Plane Crash (wish you were here)'

So, the last few days have been frustrating in so many ways.
I haven't talked to someone I considered one of my best friends in over a week, which is weird cause usually we talk every day all the time, but he wont return my phone calls or respond to my texts, and he haven't been online on Messenger that often, and when he has been he haven't contacted me at all. This made me worried about him, so Sunday night I sent him a text telling him that I was worried, not a sound in response. A few hours later he talked to me on Messenger as if nothing had happened, and I decided to let it be, and just take "the talk" about the past week later on cause I was kinda in the middle of something when he wrote me. But then all the sudden, out of the blue, he got all cold, and after a few cold responses he stopped replying.
I haven't contacted him since, cause I feel that this is his responsibility - it's him who have been ignoring me, and I can't keep up texting him or calling him to figure out what's going on with him.

Then there was a change of plans about this weekend, and the party there was meant to be a our friends' house is off, which gave me a few probs about places to stay, but Nikki and I got a deal with my friend Stine to crash at her place Friday. Then I was left with Saturday as a problem, so my Jonas asked if him and me could stay at this friend I thought was of my best friends' place. Jonas could, but there was no way that there was room for me there. That made me a little suspicious.
But now I just found out that a few of our other friends are staying there too. So now I'm seriously pissed at him. If I did something wrong he could at least have the decency to tell me!

And then there's this girl that I have been friends with for a bit more than half a year. Since November I guess. She's always had tiny things that have annoyed me, but I have put up with it, cause hey, we can't all like everything about each other.
But now it has just become too much. The more I think about it, the more I dislike her, and get annoyed by her. And I feel really bad about it, cause I don't think that she even realizes the things she does.
I just think that she is so self-centered and shallow and attention-desperate, and I just can't stand those kinda things.
She turns things that should be private and intimate and are actually really bad into some kind of circus to get attention, and it makes nauseated. I think it's sick and wrong those things that she does, and my honest opinion is that this girl needs some kind of help.
It is true though that she has been through a lot in her life, and that it must have been really tough for her and her family - but so have I, and I don't go around whining about it all the time just to get attention.
I hate her pity-crusade. It's wrong, it's sick and she needs help.

Normally when people gets on my last nerve I tell them, but how the Hell should I ever be able to tell her this?!
Everyone thinks that she is "soooo brave" and that she is "such a good person", so if I ever point this out to her she can tie them around her little finger in a second and I will end up losing a lot of people I really care about. I am starting to believe that that is what have happened with my (ex) best friend, cause he sees her as some kind of goddess that are unable to make mistakes, another thing that makes me wanna puke.

Many people might raise an eyebrow about this statement and think "hey, she's so obviously jealous", and trust me, I have gone that side of the story over and over again in my head. But no, it has nothing, whatsoever, to do with jealousy, cause she has nothing that I am interested in.
I am not interested in the kind of attention that she constantly seeks, I am not interested in being looked at as the "never-failing goodie goodie". No way, cause that is not me.
I just think that people are giving her attention on a false basis, and my respect for her sinks deeper and deeper every time I hear from her.

And I will end this now before my head explodes.
Thank you for putting up with my irrational, and extreme, garbage. All I know is that it really loosened up to get this out of my system cause I have been carrying it around for a long time now.
Let's just hope it doesn't escalate this Friday where I am forced to fake a smile for her.

Sweat The Battle Before The Battle Sweats You

Sitting here listening to Sweat the Battle Before the Battle Sweats You (Album Version) from Cute Is What We Aim For, and I decided it was time for an update before leaving to make some dinner for my beloved father.
There still isn't any progress in my home-hunting in the big city, but I am planning to talk to my friend about her dorm and what she thinks about me applying for a room there asap.
Buuuuuut, this weekend I will be spending with Elisa (♥) being house-sitters for my sister and her bf. We planned to get drunk and have a marshmallow-contest - who can eat more marshmallows without vomiting. And we are going to watch Benny & Joon, and go Green Day nuts about Billie Joe's hairless arse :D

And then next week is coming. It's gonna be hard, tough. Extraordinary painful.
Tuesday will be awesome, spent with Jacque, and we are thinking about going to Eventyrhaven to just chill out.
Wednesday Jacque and I will meet up at Odense Station to go to Sjælland together. She's going to Fowsia's, I am going to Stine's. When I get to Stine's we are gonna get drunk, and Morten and I will be shooting her down with waterpistols and waterballons. THIS is gonna be great!
And then we are just gonna hang out till Friday - Friday is what is gonna kill me.
It's gonna be so mixed. I can't wait till I see everybody; Nikki, Theo, Nanna, Joy, Christian, Inge, JONAS, just everybody ... but June 25 is gonna be one of the worst dates in HIStory. I can't even get myself to think about the pain that is gonna inflict all of the City Square of Copenhagen on that date. So many tears, so much love, so much pain, so much frustrations..  It's gonna be straight-downwards Hell.

But let's just make the best of it; if we can.

Peace out, folks

The purple dinosaur of my backyard

The weekend that Theo and Julie visited me we sat cuddling all three crowded together in my sofa. The door to the backyard was open, so we could look out at the fields behind my house - cause that is really all there is around my house.
But as we sat there, looking out, just enjoying each other's company, we started talking about how we were just waiting for the trees behind the field to move. And in some way we got to the subject that a large purple dinosaur would appear from between the trees, and run across the large yellow field.
So from that moment on we agreed that a large purple dino lives in my backyard. And as I am a Skittles-whore I decided that this purple dinosaur would be named Skittles, and only feed on Skittles.
And tonight I was bored as Hell, so now I've drawn the famous purple Skittles dinosaur of my backyard. Here you all go, this is my dinosaur-pet:

I am very sad to say, that the colors of the rainbow aren't that visible. My dad's scanner didn't catch all of the colors because I drew it with coloring pencils, which aren't that good  friends with old scanners.
But in fact the colors of the rainbow is in the exact chemical color code of a rainbow: red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo and purple - because I'm a nerd :D

This was drawn to the tunes of Alice Cooper's Only Women Bleed (Album Version)

horror marathon at my place

So, we decided to have a horror-marathon at my place, but we ended up watching movies that weren't horrific in any way, so the most scared we got was when my dad got home around 2am.
List of movies we ended up seeing:

1) The Amityville Horror
2) God's Army
3) The Others (Two-Disc Collector's Edition)
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and Sunday:

4)The Omen
5) Damien: Omen II
6) Cujo

The world is in a serious need of good horror movies....

That most annoying feeling...

It's been two amazing days with Theo and Julie at my place..
but now I feel empty, and my house feels empty, and it's making me depressed as hell..

I miss Theo to cuddle with, and to curl into a ball while holding his hand, and my head on his shoulder. It's not fair to have this damn distance between us - the world is just mean.

I don't know how I feel right now.
I think I've pushed my feelings for him (not Theo) away - and yet again I am not sure.
But I don't know. It feels like I've got an emptiness inside - I can't seem to get rid off it.
If I don't feel like that about him anymore, who should I dream of instead? If I don't feel like that about him anymore, who am I going to fall for, that I am really not supposed to fall for?
........one thing I do know is; this is a huge mess..

A Box Full of Love

So ... the mail just arrived, and it was filled with happiness.
The first i opened was the cardboard shaped like an old fashioned record - oh yeah, a vinyl LP. i already knew what it would be, but I was thrilled to open it and see that it was in such an amazing state.
My new Michael Jackson;  Music And Me vinyl record, old-school style:

Such a beauty - I love it :'DD

and then I baked a few chocolate-chip muffins - because I was bored ...

and here it is..  the inside of my box filled with love (and gold pants) from Fowsia. It's amazing - a book filled with pictures of Michael and her and me with friends, doing Michael'ish stuff, a pack of MJ badges, a postcard with a beautiful black/white photo of MJ on it, two toffees, and for those who can't see it, a little plastic-bag with Skittles - my favorite candy of all times.

Thank you, honey - I love you so much.<3

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And now I have to leave you, cause I have to find a bus so I can go and pick up Theo and Julie in Odense, so we can go to my place and act all goofy and crazeeeeeeey..

Happy Halloween ya all...    -or maybe not :'DD

happy sunshine then, love you folks ..

Peace, and keep the faith

This is my life....

So ...  my day has been as following;
woke up around 10, stayed in bed till around 10.30, just enjoying the warmth of the sun in my face.
Then I got up, and scrambled around the kitchen to find myself some breakfast. Then I sat and talked to my dad, when all the sudden I remembered I had a bus to catch.
Then I met my mom, and gave her the paint for my grandpa. Then she drove me down to the gym, and I spent around an hour on working out.(GORGEOUS girl in the dressing room, and all the sudden her amazing breasts were in my face, me just begging to God not to let this be a dream *dies*)
After that I went to shop some fruit for my little get-together-thing tomorrow, where two of my friends are coming over. I found a bag of 200 waterballons - which, of course, I just had to own! and a package of oil crayons, that I had been looking for for around a million years - creativity here I come :D
And then I had to run to catch the bus, but I made it. Then I called my piercer to ask him what my planned new piercing is gonna cost, and he told me that he doesn't even make those, because of the infections it can cause. Well, that was a huge bummer - now I have to decide if I want it anyway, and just take real good care of it, or not - dammit!
Then I got home, and realized that I had forgot to buy strawberries, miv...  

But now I am just talking to Theo and Jonas (arhww *dies* dammit hating love) on MSN, and should actually be going to my room and vacuum it all  .___.

Let's see how that works out, wish me luck, folks...

Peace, and keep the faith, all of you creepers out there.

You make me happy, whether you know it or not.....

I just need to get this out of my system.......
It's almost weekend, and I am actually kinda anxious, cause I have friends coming over to MY HOUSE, and I haven't had friends over in years - literally. So it's pretty exciting for me.
But what I can't wait for the most, is to see Theo...
I can't wait till I can hug him again! I really miss hugging him...
One of the most amazing things about Theo is, that when he hugs you, you can feel that he means it - no pity-hugging here. It's fantastic.
So....   main thing here is: 

THEO IS COMING TO HUG ME SOON :'DD